Love Buzz

Love is most glorious. Love also rips you apart.JonasWhen I woke this morning, I didn't expect this. For Autumn's past to step in and rip away everything I love. Autumn asks for patience, but with each passing day, she slips farther from my grasp.I refuse to lose Autumn or Clementine. Not to him. Not to anyone.They are my girls. Always.As the picture perfect life I envision with them slowly fades, the pain beneath my sternum grows more powerful.Each passing day, my chest tightens at the loss of them.I never imagined I would discover the love of my life, only to lose her.AutumnWhen I woke this morning, I never saw this coming. My ex storming back into my life and threatening to steal everything I hold precious. Not just my daughter, but also my livelihood. And I refuse to let him do either.Until this ends, I must let go of my newfound selfishness and focus solely on Clementine.Until this ends, I must forget about love. Temporarily.When I memorized Jonas's heartbeat, I had no idea I would need to recall it in my lonely bed so soon.I had no idea my heart would ache so profusely in his absence.I have never known pain like this. And I have never been so torn....hopefully, our love will survive the storm.