Tormented

I feel as though I was a glitch in life's major plan, that I never had a place set aside for me in this world.
I'm an outcast by design. Bent in the head after childhood trauma, and never quite sure who I'm going to be day to day.
The nice guy?
The psychotic asshole?
Or some happy medium of the two?
People stay away for fear of what I can do, and I don't blame them. After all, I have no conscience, no remorse, and no guilt for the horrific things I've done; the reasons why I'm the Fallen Aces MC's best asset when it comes to retribution and punishment.
I deliver, without hesitation, and without doubt.
Until Abbey. One kiss, one taste, and I question everything.
Is this right?
Can I change?
What can I offer her?
She's wild, unsociable, and guards her heart with the tenacity of a lioness.
I want to tame her. Break her spirit and make her mine.
I want to ruin her.
The very reasons why she has to go.