I didn’t know I was submissive, not until him, not until he threatened to pull me over his knees. That one moment began a journey I hadn’t expected to love so very much. And when I lost him; my lover, business partner, and the man I’d called Sir, I retreated inside myself, lost and uncertain. I put one foot in front of the other, shutting off my emotions, and my needs. I was content to simply exist.